Try n encourage yourself you can do it. Please try ehn. The pain after CS is nothing compared to natural delivery. You might have heard stories from other mothers that CS is better. My dear look for a mother that has done the 2 mode of delivery before concluding. Am not condemning CS o but since it is not your doctor's recommendation, Just an advice.

U don't need to be scared my dear, its a beautiful experience but if u insist on the Elective cs, I paid 130k in military hospital